14 - The End

I think the final point is that learning for me is really hard and overwhelming. It makes me want to quit learning, my job and my life. I think the reason I struggle is that I am missing the black corner of the medicine wheel. The emotional, reason, “figure it out” part. Things are kind of chunky moving when it gets to rolling around or flowing in a particular direction.

Another I am struggling this way is that I’m online and learning alone. And even though we are having an online conversation with questions - it’s not the same as a back-and-forth conversation where I can see, instantly if I can understand or not. Here online, I have no idea if I am doing what I am supposed to be doing or if I am on the right track and that feels uncomfortable, lonely and risky. I think this course as an online course doesn’t match the values that it is trying to pass on.

Its interesting to see where my learning will go from here.